And so the hiatus has begun. And I figured, maybe I should revive this livejournal page again even though I only have one reader (hi Elaine! :D) but at least I would have somewhere to share and vent.

So I have been unproductively spending my free time reading MLIA for hours on end. Bad. Although, what's so awesome about it is the realisation that there ARE people out there who are as random as me, just unabashed about it. See, our Singaporean minds are so narrow-minded we are so afraid to stand out of the norm and do something insanely strange like stick our heads out the windows and sunroofs of our SUVs rowing our oars and singing 'Just Around the Riverbend' from Pocahontas (Nadia, we have made a cali-pact).

I would make doing something crazy as a resolution of my life (skydiving isn't counted), but I believe I lack the guts to do so :/ So I'll just be, less than average (or 'meh') for now ):

That aside, I feel the occasional itch to log onto facebook or msn again. See, addicted. But I'm really controlling myself (although it's only been 2 days. Feels like a month though :/) and I think I'm doing quite okayy so far. Then again, not alot of people care :/ (yes I'm a teeny bit insecure. I'm human! Don't judge me!)

But I realise that I have no one to call here that I can randomly ask out for lunch or just to shop, unlike in Aussie where I'm so used to calling Soraya (malaysian friend, some of you might not know. Elaine you know right :/) to take a walk to safeway or, nowhere at night when I'm bored or sick of doing my homework. So please, random friend, can you pop up now ):

I think I'm feeling a little inferior right now (it's pretty normal for my state of mind, I'll get out of it soon enough, I just need something/someone to pull me out of it :/) about MU friends. It might be best to take a backseat and see whether I'm really wanted in or not. Sometimes I feel like I'm barging into someone else's fun and I'm not say the most interesting person around (I'm really quite a dud, sorry.) and it's understandable if no one wants to hang around me.

I shall try and learn how to be a loner next sem, and maybe brush up on some cooking skills hmmmm. Right now though I think I just need a tad more discipline in my SIP. Run wendy, run!

Wendy Weasley,
Gryffindor

 Can't stop listening to Billy Gilman's 'Warm and Fuzzy Time of Year" (:

I'm coming home, I want the world to know, got to let it show! :D:D:D

13th November I can't wait. And I realise how long it's been since I've updated here. And since I'm in confusion again, why not :/

What does it mean if you keep thinking about a guy that you think you'll never like hmmmhmmm what happened to my rey of sunshine ):

Then again, by writing this down I'm confirming what I'm saying, which isn't really what I want it to be. This is more weird than sucky really :/

:/:/

ESSAY ESSAY ESSAY I WILL FINISH YOU.

1 month, 5 days (according to chonglibingzxzx) until Home Sweet Home! Mark your calendars for the 13th November cause I'm coming home babehhhh :D

Until then, it's 3 essays, 2 scripts and 1 short story to be accomplished. Could life be anymore tiring? :/


Lots of <3,

 IT'S OVER! THE DEED IS DONE! I'M FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

Spring Break is here and jam-packed with activities I hope I still have time to catch up on my work :/ Please remind me everytime you see me online to DO MY WORK thanks (:

Yayayayayayayayayayyyyyyy can't wait I'm going to camppppp (with with with you-don't-know-who) and the royal melbourne show for shift duty with Wildlife Victoria Volunteers and Perth to visit my jie jie and SKYDIVING WOOOOOOOOOOO

of course I would've traded everything to go back home but sighhhhhh expensive arh ):

Miss you all hughugkisskiss see you in November okayy? PLEASE CELEBRATE MY BDAY THEN THANKS

Attended Asian PR (which is usually boring and useless) today and was shown 2 videos with regards to corporate responsibility and ethics.

One of them highlighted the Narmada Sagar Dam (NSD) and the Sardar Sarovar Dam (SSD) projects and the vast effects on the villagers whose land was to be submerged in the dam building process.

While watching it I just felt so empty inside and was just thinking how much I would like to help these people (or all others in general) next time (or even now - RSPCA and Wildlife Victoria Volunteer come first). Is what I'm studying all in vain? Meelah I understand how you feel when you were talking about the social work dream a very long time ago (when I told you about that Genesis/Ecclesiastes dream which I'm working on now :/) and it's kinda motivating me to do something useful in my life. More than just aiming for my own selfish goals I really do wanna impact others.

What made me feel even more guilty about taking my blessed life for granted is the last sentence of the video before it was switched off, when an old indian lady was talking about the plight of people who had to move to the horrible conditions of the slums from a comfortable village life. And I quote: "I am just waiting to die now."

I cannot and will never be able to imagine how the people feel but I do know that having a life without a purpose or goal is no motivation to live on.

My question to all you lovely lovely people is (if you have ever thought about it) 'what is one thing you could do to change the world?' it could be a very small change, but it'd still be a change nonetheless. The senior pastor was just talking about dreams in church and how everyone should have a dream and work towards that dream that God will interpret (I'm not preaching, just sharing) and I guess mine right now (maybe it might change, but I don't think I'm THAT fickle :/) is to be able to make an impact on a stranger's (even an animal's!) life (or anyone I know even better :D) and to be a samaritan I guess? It's a big dream, but I should think it's a possible dream too!

That aside, I really hate school. I hate the fact that people don't know each other well in tutorials. I hate that we're not forced to stick to a class of the same people everyday. I hate that I live so near I always wake up late. I hate that I'm not focused on studying cause I know there is so much more to do than coop myself up. I need motivation and some pushing from my family and friends. I need nagging ):

On the plus side, I might be coming back to Singapore for a week (second week of hols) after my Spring Break Camp (I'm in Singapore Students Society it's not as lame as you would think) so await my returnnnn please I'm giving you the dates now (possibly) 26th Sept to 3rd Oct 2009 (hopefully) so please make the week free and celebrate my belated birthday with meeeeeeeeeeeeeee okayzxzxzxz I really can't wait to see all of you (you know who you are)!

Some piczxzxz for visual updates:

Lunch with the UL people:


The most yummylicious vietnamese thingy I've eaten. love the coconuty seafood flavour!

DIY:

My first homecooked meal! Yes, there were more after this.

Sandy and Wendy's DAY OF FUN:

Crazy mirrors at Pancake Parlour. Miss you la Bingo and Tong.


The Best Hot Chocolate in the world.


Chocolate EVERYTHING.


Awesome Nasi Lemak. The sambal is actually hot!


The Best Cake in the world.

Bag Raiders launch party:







Clubbing company was pretty fun but I'd much rather be at Pump or Zouk with you girlssss ):

Byebye <3



PS: I'm sorry I really haven't been taking enough pictures here :/

 Wahh damn long alr since I last updated :/

HIHIHIHIHIHIHI :D Just when I thought Friday sucks so bad... things got better (:

Just came back from Roxanne's Parlour which held the album launch of Bag Raiders last night. The music was blah so after some random dancing I went to sit down with Joanne.

Then this guy (Mike Sellar is the name) asked if he could sit down and sat next to me. I thought he was drunk so I asked if he's alright and from there we started talking and this is what I found out:
- Family man. Check.
- Non-alcoholic. Check.
- Not a big fan of clubbing. Check.
- Doesn't like the idea of picking up girls. Check.
- Idea of a perfect day = Cooking breakfast and subsequently chilling at home with a good dvd on. Check.
- Goal-oriented in life. Check.
- Earning an income. Check.
- Works out 4 times a week in gym. Check.
- Mixed blood. Check.
- Young (22 years old). Check.

Compared to all the other men in clubs usually with only one purpose in mind - to pick up girls - this guy wins.

Please don't ask me why I totally forgot to take a picture with him. It just didn't occur to me that my camera was in my bag :/

He will always be the one that got away :/

Elllooooooooo :D

I think it's been a pretty long while since I updated. I've got work to finish by tomorrow night but I suddenly really really miss all of you and I just wanna do this post =/

School so far has been pretty okayy la. Because I'm totally friendless in tutorials, I mostly go in alone and sit alone. But the people in tutes are really friendly so that's a plus point here! And lectures have been pretty okayy. Haven't fallen asleep in any yet surprisingly =/ maybe just in Asian PR. But the lecturer really damn boring =/

So I'm taking a double major this semester: Media Communications and Creative Writing. Quite excited la. I'm taking short fiction and screenwriting and by the end of the sem, I'm supposed to write a short novel and a script. I'm still clueless as to what I should write and how I should approach the assignment.

ANY IDEAS????? If you do have suggestions as to what I could write about let me know kayzxzxz thankssomuchlovelovelove =/

Anyhoo (I actually heard a guy use that here =/) My social life here pretty okayy la. I got to know 2 girls and the social circle started expanding from there. I still don't know very many people but from one of the girls I also started talking to these 2 guys. We usually hang out with them if we go to my friend's place to cook. Okayy it's kinda complicated when I explain it now =/

ANYWAYYZXZXZXZXXZ I really dont' know what I wanna say alr. OMG i'm so sorry if this post is bloody boring but I was just panicking about not being able to find a movie online so my focus is kinda gone right now =/ I promise the next post will be alittle better =/ 

Okay how about this. I kinda have a crush on one of the guys now WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO here's a pic:



Sorry to disappoint (or pleasantly delight) that the guy I like is not the cute one. GAHHHHH but the cute one hor, he's really quite funny, in a cheeky way. But I guess I will never be that attracted to white guys in that way =/ Well maybe half white, cause he's English/Jap!

Okayy the main purpose of this post was to really thank you wonderful people for your farewell gifts, though some may be kinda weird (omg elaine people were staring at me when I whipped out my HSM notebook =/) but I still really really love every gift (: 

For pictures please direct yourself to fb cause I realise how long it takes for me to upload my thousands of pictures. GOGOGOGOGO I'VE GOT YOU ALL IN THERE!

Missing you already (in no order of preference), Robbbynnn, Annmarie, Jeanette Chia, Delia, NSDOGSS, Elaine, Huimei, Meelah, Bingochaotahpiah, Tongs, Hong Jooooooon, Nisha, Eunice, Jalyn, Star, Kin, Cher, Rz, Kwek, Sar, Serric, SHARON OR, Twin...

In my next post I will intro you my homiesssssss here!

Hello! Whoever's still reading this pretty stagnant blog right now!

I'm so sorry I've been meaning to update about everything going on here but I've been so occupied with so many activities (yes it's been pretty busy :D)

But now that all the family has gone back, and the friends have accompanied. I wil have the time to really upload everything I wanna show and say.

Soon okayy soon!

LOVELOVELOVE YOU!

Ello my weird, wonderful friends!

I’m actually not supposed to be this happy right now cause I’m totally screwed I forgot my poly transcripts and don’t have the syllabus so basically I might not be able to get my credit exemption just yet =/ If it does go through though (hopefully with God’s grace), I will have one year off this course and my parents get to pay one sem less of fees :D so please pray for me =/

The weekend has been filled with food and merriment. And in addition to the cold, refreshing wind splashing across my face, Melbourne couldn’t get any better.

Spaghetti Michelinos(?)




Chocolate Tiramisu
 

But still, I’ve been worrying so much about the first day of school and now it’s finally arriving (tomorrow). Just so worried I won’t be able to make friends at all, considering how socially inept I am =/ Plus classes won’t be like poly at all cause of all the international brains flying in, so I will have to work doubly hard if I really really want to get into that UCLA exchange programme *crosses fingers* I hope my literary skills aren’t as bad as I am thinking it to be right now.

And the fact that my mum and sis’ departures are looming doesn’t help anything at all. Although we still have a little less than 2 weeks left (1 for mama), we all know the days go by quickly when we have fun =/

Right now though, I’ve finally seen my apartment and it’s horribly small but I guess kinda cosy. Wasn’t expecting it to be this small though cause it was supposed to be a 1-bedroom apartment, not a studio-bedroom apartment =/ Anyway, at least it faces the pool and has new appliances. The area around my apartment is pretty quiet at night but my sis says it’s better than staying at her old street where crazy people emerge from the city’s corners at night and flood the streets. =/ Will post up pictures of the apartment once I take some!

For now my family and I are staying at the Crown Hotel and it’s friggin awesome.

Crown Sign



The NORMAL room looks like and EXECUTIVE suite so I really can’t imagine what the PRESIDENTIAL suite (where Katie Holmes is rumoured to be currently staying in) would look like at all!

I'll take of the toilet next time, It's really the grandest part of the room!

Besides that, my aunt has been really hospitable and fetching us around the city to eat and shop. I’ve been trying to find a comfortable, pretty pair of boots but to no avail. I also need a new coat, a handbag and a wallet. I hope there’s time before school starts =/

Can’t wait for sandeeee to come so we can go budget shopping (she’s got the eye for the cheap goods) and grocery shopping. I also have yet to meet up with Spas, Eugene, Chrystal and Rebecca so… we’ll try to arrange? (none of them know about this blog btw HAHAHAH so I’m not referring the question to them =/)

Hope everyone’s enjoying themselves now in sunny Singapore, whose weather I still do not miss (except when I’m showering cause the toilet always very cold at night) but whose food I crave for daily.

I really can’t wait to start cooking! Bye for now, will update about orientation week once the nightmare is over =/

Note to self: Be sociable Wendy, be CRAZEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =/

PS: Look at this awesome lift It's super old school:







The Liftmen



Bye <3

Found the online tutorial for Don't Stop Believin' on piano I shall accomplish it before I leave yes!

Was telling Nadia how rottted my brain is right now. Haven't put it to any proper use since the last exam. Stringing smart, structured sentences now seem like a chore to me. I keep telling myself to read the papers but apparently it doesn't work =/

And now that I have THE SIMS 3 as a lonely companion I think my chances of restoring the smarts are very low. That aside, I missed playing Sims so much I set my own record 8 hours straight :D I think that contributed to the astig =/ I'm pretty excited though that I'm gonna get my specs this sat can't wait can't wait :D

I'm really bad at this chronicling of life thing on my blog. I should really do it properly so I can pen down my travels in the great aussie land (of course for you Elaine my only reader! :D:D:D:D)

For now it's just alternate days of SPCA and driving (which I'm starting tomorrow!). Will update again, soon.

Packing Status: Barely Started =/ (yikes!)

Either I'm bored or reacting to what's coming in two weeks. Met Tong and Sandy today for a very lovely tea. It's just so nice to chat about everything and anything (where were you CLB!)

But now I feel like running away from all that. I don't know how to explain that feeling of isolation, but I know it's just the way I felt 4 years ago. This is what happens when you think too much.

When there're so many people/things to keep up with, you just kinda lose yourself. So many people I know have gone and disappeared and now I'm gonna become one of them =/

This is really messy. My thoughts are in disarray now.

Sorry.

Bye.

Finally after days of hopeful searching, I found it!:


Proof my celebrity encounter with the Prince of Badminton - Boonsak Ponsana

I looked damn young last time I realise =/ but woo I met him before okayy take that you haterz!

Anyway, it dawned on me last night that I don't have very many weekends left. So from now on, I shall make full use of the Singapore sun and walk everyday. Not including today though, cause I just packed my room (so productive see =/).

As the date draws nearer, I'm feeling the fear of going to school. I'm excited don't get me wrong, but just really, REALLy scared.

To all that have accompanied me these past few months and years, you're really gonna be missed. But I shall save my goodbyes for the last moment. So until then, take care :D

<3

This feeling is so unreal. It's like finding out that there's no more durians in this world, that you'd never thought that it would be extinct =/ I can't imagine what his family is feeling right now, but God bless them.

Hello :D

I'm back from Taiwan and miss my lappy ALOT

We went all around Taiwan trying new food and taking in new sights got kinda homesick 4 days in (maybe cause I'm so angmoh-pai =/) but it was super fun eating all the taiwanese food (not as much as I expected though)!

The tour guide was pretty funny la but he talked too much I fell asleep several times and got scolded by my brother. I find it hard to talk about my whole holiday experience (I usually let pictures do the talking) but I just gotta say i went to this pi xiu (you know those lion guardians people bring around with them or the enlarged version usually guarding chinese buildings/restaurants - don't know what it's called in english) place they were talking about fengshui and how to determine your element (Earth, Fire, Water, Gold, Wood) through your name and birth date.

The lady was helping my family and through that started describing to us our own characters (which were, by the way, so totally true) and what's wrong with us and what element we lacked that we needed to carry around with us. And I realised how scary it is to know so much about yourself and then you'll wonder why can't you be more perfect if you already know what your own problem is =/

I was kinda disappointed we didn't go to any hot springs ESPECIALLY after knowing about it from Hana Kimi and knowing that there was the possiblity of Wu Zun having soaked in one of those hot springs (even if it was the guy side) so DANG.

But other than the abnormal amount of mountain top sight seeing I think it was a really good experience to be able to travel all around Taiwan instead of being stuck in the usual places like Taipei or Kaushiung (dunno how to spell =/)

Just ate some of the snacks ZOMG delish!

This post has been long overdue =/

Bye!

I'm gonna be needing some of them Felix Felicis =/

"Of the 25,000 recorded global cases of the swine flu virus some 1,500 cases have been recorded in Australia, which is well into its traditional winter flu season. Of those, the majority (over 1,000) of H1N1 cases are in the state of Victorian... On a per capita basis Melbourne is the current swine flu (H1N1) capital of the world." (etn, 2009)

Please pray for me and wish me luck! And pray for my family too please!

and THANKS huimei for making me jealous and sad that I didn't have a picture with Boonsak. =/

It feels like I'm in limbo waiting for 17th July to come. HURRY HURRY I can't wait to see my new apartment and see spas and hang out sandyyy and start school! Although I definitely CAN wait to leave my family and stay alone =/

My posts have been out of point lately just cause I'm so distracted. Sorry.

Going away tomorrow morning I should be packing byebye

I wanted to blog 2 times but never found the time or the patience to do so but now that I've got internet 24/7, here I am!

So my flight ticket's confirmed I'm leaving on the 17th July if you have nothing to do on that day and somehow feel the urge to head towards changi airport then feel free to contact me for flight details :D

Just read this article about how social networking sites are v dangerous and have caused robberies and was wondering whether I should stop posting pics on fb. so creepy people can stalk you =/

Anyway now I've got nothing to blog about so =/

Watching Zorro now bye!

Here I am in the corner of the library's 4th floor with Carrie Underwood on repeat and I find myself wondering what departing will be like.

It feels quiet today. It feels like I have all the time in the world right now to do anything I want. And all I want to do is sit, think and type.

If it's anything like China then I don't think I'll feel sad. Honestly, I was pretty excited to leave Singapore and become independent. But 2 weeks in and I caved, and cried harder than I ever had. But this isn't gonna be 5 months, it's gonna be 2 and a 1/2 years (let's just say 3).

Will it be much worse when the realisation hits me that I'm living alone in a foreign country?

So many things can change in 3 years, and so many things can be lost as well. Will my dog still be here? Will she still remember me? Will the blue car I've always dreamed of driving break down and be replaced? Will my brother finally find a girl he can settle down with (Okayy this one maybe not that fast =/)? Will I forget how to talk to someone I've known for years? Will they still remember me?

What's so peaceful about sitting here is that no one recognises me, no one will tell me what to do. It's been 3 hours since I've started on this entry, and I still have Carrie Underwood on repeat.

I'm hoping I won't feel miserable there. I can't wait for it, yet I'm dreading what's about to come. I mean, who can bear to leave their sanctuary? Who can take the first step out into the world without worrying about the consequences?

Tonight I find myself kneeling by the bed to pray
I haven't done this in a while
So I don't know what to say but
'Lord I feel so small sometimes in this big ol' place
Yeah, I know there are more important things,
But don't forget to remember me

...

Today, I cried over an alien who was going to die in than 25 hours.

=/

Hi.

I've officially graduated today :D

Bye!